Saturday, June 24, 2006

A painful hangover...

As soon as I said it, I couldn't help but wish that I didn't.

Once again, I have messed up because of my words. Because of the words that I hardle ever think about and just continue to spout off with complete disregard for any repercussions or consequences.

Like an alcoholic after a night of drinking alcohol waking up to a don't-talk-to-me-cause-every-word-and-sound-that-comes-out-of-your-mouth-is-like-a-drill-that-pokes-and-um-drills-into-my-grey-matter-or-what's-left-of-it-hangover, I regret only when it's too late.

Then only to do it again and again and again.

And regretting again and again and again.

It never stops.

Sometimes I wish I was born without the ability to use my vocal cords and I would just communicate through writing. I mean, at least with writing you have to actually think about what you're going to say/write before actually showing it to someone.

The curse of working vocal cords.

I mean, it would be acceptable I guess if I can actually use them for singing, but nooo. Not only can I not control my words when I speak, I have to sound like a cross-breed between a frog and a bull whenever I attempt to sing any kind of song, at any type of tune, with any type of melody, using any type of rhythm.

I'm a shame to all filipinoes.

Lotsa love, Jana



Blogger juice said...

we make mistakes jana. i remember doing the same infront of all my family members and my mom was red hot mad. bt we learn our mistakes n we learn not to make them again.

hope all are good. missing you around here!

10:48 AM 
Blogger Queen Sana said...

Good gosh, you're kidding.....

I just did the SAME thing.

I told a girl she looked like crap (AND SHE WAS A GOOD FRIEND, AND I MEANT IT IN THE "Gurl, you look tired and sick and are you OK?" way)......

And she cried.

I'm off to apologize to her tomorrow.

We all stick our feet straight in our mouths.

Doesn't make it any EASIER.......

But remember, you're not alone.

6:18 PM 
Blogger jana said...

things have been in a way better but in another way much much worse. but i'm learning to stand on my own two feet. i guess i'll be alright.

8:27 PM 
Anonymous Hannah said...

heheh. is it me or did we just experience the same thing?

man, i'd better learn to be tactful..

3:53 PM 
Blogger jana said...

i do that all the time.

9:49 PM 

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