Look At My Pretty Bus Card
Example on language barrier issues:I had to load my bus card for only 2,500 Won. Unfortunately, I didn't know that you can only load 5,000 Won and higher. After the conversation, where we were both speaking two very different languages with shaking of head and hand gestures later, I ended up with 25,000 Won in my bus card, and a promise to come back once a week to pay my debt as I only had 5,000 Won with me.
The man was very nice though, and it was probably my fault in there somewhere.
Labels: Life in the form of chocolate
Books, Among Other Things
Did I ever tell you that I was on a holiday for a year?
I mean, if you didn't count that somewhat more or less a month stay at the place I will now refer to as THE WORST DECISION I'VE MADE IN MY ENTIRE LIFE AS AN ACADEMIC STUDENT THOUGH NOT AS A PERSON BECAUSE I MET MANY COOL AND AWESOME PEOPLE BUT I REALLY DID NOT LIKE LAW SCHOOL OKAY? And believe me, even I don't count it as actual studying.
I think I've mentioned this once, twice, or even probably a gazillion times before, but I was never one for long vacations. I'm a bum, sure, but I didn't like it. So this was actual torture for me, because even though I looked like I was enjoying it, I mean who wouldn't enjoy no pressure, the sleep-wake-eat-sleep lifestyle, and the non-stop amount of TV I've been having, I really was not.
Every single day I was growing restless.
By the second month, I wanted something to do.
But nothing ever stuck. And so I was forced (yeah, yeah) to bum it out. Like Sherlock, I really didn't know what I should do. BUT UNLIKE SHERLOCK, I didn't hop around like demented bunny but instead slept whenever I can, because that's just how I roll.
And now, well in a week's time, classes will start. I've already received a (LEGAL) copy of my books for the semester. I'm devouring them, as we speak.
Well, maybe not literally, but you get the picture.
And I can't wait. Now, I'm being demented Sherlock bunny, and I regret absolutely nothing. I figure it's the adrenaline rush, and soon enough I will wish for the vacation to start again.
But I've known myself for years now.
I'm always happier when I've got something to do.
Labels: Life in the form of chocolate, Schoolingness
Hey, I'm Actually Still Alive
When I was leaving for Korea, I had this feeling.
It's a feeling that's hard to describe in one word, so let me try a couple of run-on sentences. I felt like I was happy, so very happy, so very excited, like I couldn't possibly be flying to Korea now could I? Like is this really happening, like is this for real because this cannot be for real, because not once in my life have I ever thought I would fly to somewhere so far away, where I would be able to experience things that I have never experienced before, and everything is so new and pretty, and PICTURES PICTURES PICTURES. But at the same time, there's also this extreme sadness in my heart. Like am I really leaving everything I ever knew behind for a long time, is this really happening, is this really going to last for three years, and can I just get off the plane now? Can't I just go home now?
It's a mixture of heightened expectations of new experiences and a depression so deep that I didn't know my heart could reach that far.
I went on this new journey because I wanted to see who I was, who I truly was, when I was stripped away from everything that was ever used to define me. I was excited to learn new things, experience new things, build new friendships, and just have a wonderful time discovering who I am.
But then, there's this sadness of everything I have left behind. It's like my friends are purposely deciding to get married, graduate, have babies, etc. on the days I won't be there with them. And it sucks, because I want to be there. I want to see them.
More than even that is my family.
See, unlike a lot of teenagers and young adults I have met online, I'm actually really close with my family. I tell my mother everything, including things I probably shouldn't be sharing on a regular basis. If I suddenly disappear and you need to find me but NO ONE knows how to, you can ask my mother. Though I doubt she'll tell you. My brother is my best friend, and we agree on everything. Do you have this ginormous crush on my personality, but can't have me because I'm already taken? Here, have my brother, it's like having me, but as a guy. And my father? He is my king. He is kind and loving, and caring, and rules with an iron fist of love. He is goofy and quiet all the same time. He is mystery wrapped in enigma. He is my father.
And I love them so much.
And I miss them so much.
And even then there's my Turtle. The love of my life, and my partner-in-crime. He is my opposite in every way, so we mesh in every possible way as well. He is the silent type and I am so loud I can speak your ears off. He is the strong foundation, and I'm the... well maybe I'm the curtains in the window that blows flimsily, every which way. He grounds me, and I make sure he has adventures every now and then.
And can I just go home now?
But I know I can't. I know that there was a reason I left. I wanted to learn to become independent. To be on my own and to be strong enough. I wanted to learn to be complete on my own and to know what it's like to only rely on myself (and God of course, duh). And yeah it's hard. Is anything worthy ever really easy?
So I'm going to suck it in, and push forward.
It is just the third day after all, and I'm probably going to enjoy as much as I possibly can. In the end, three years will be over, and I'll come home permanently.
Till then, I can't wait.
Lotsa love, Jana
Labels: Kuya, Life in the form of chocolate, Love at its janajee-est
Opinions on Shamcey Supsup, Amongst Other Things Which Are Kind of Important Too.
I love her answer.
I also expected third place.
I still wouldn't want to change her answer.
We're living in a world where expressing your individuality warrants getting crushed. Where believing strongly in one thing and not the other forces people to ostracize you. Especially when it comes to religion. The popular notion is that all roads lead to heaven, and express anything otherwise is to earn the scorn of your peers. "How dare you think that yours is the only way? How dare you consider your religion superior than mine? Why can't my way be the way too?"
Why do you think Christianity is hated so much by the world? It's because of its claims to be the only way. The only path to salvation. That's why people can't stand it. It's no wonder really why she got third place. (Sidebar: Muslims claim it too, but people usually don't say much out of fear. Even though most Muslims that I know are lovely people, the overwhelming notion of other people who do not know them equate them to scary monsters - all untrue of course). But that's what Christianity is, it's exclusive.
That's what Christianity is all about, being the only way, the only path to salvation. That's why if you choose to be a Christian, you better be in it for the long haul. Because even though it has great rewards in the end, the path that you chose isn't going to be easy.
When Shamcey said those words, I whooped inside because I wouldn't have answered any differently. But at least let me try my hand at it? Ahem, ahem.
Miss Macabali, would you change your religious beliefs to marry the man you love? Why or why not?
No, I would not change them because even though I can love a man who does not share my religious beliefs, I could never be with him because he does not love my God. I would rather choose to be alone than to be with someone who cannot share my passion for my God, for my Christ, for my Savior. My faith is an integral part of who I am, and if he does not share my faith then he cannot have me at all, at least not in that way. We're still good when it comes to remaining as friends though.
(Sidebar: Miss Macabali as a Miss Universe contestant? Stop dreaming Jana, dearest. It's never gonna happen. Ever.)
You want to be a Christian? Then you got to be willing to pay the price. It's not about being rich, or being satisfied in this world. It's about being presented with a choice: this world or Christ. This path that the world gives, or the path where Christ saves.
I chose my Christ, and I've never once regretted it.
Labels: Je, Life in the form of chocolate, Love at its janajee-est
Law School Blues
I hate being stressed out.
Honestly, I'm a pretty laid back lady. I prefer doing things on my own pace, and just enjoying life as it comes day by day. Life's too short, is what I always say, and to spend it with a stick up one's behind is waste life. I'm all up for working hard, and having goals, and dreams, and stuff like that, but if one isn't happy, then why must one continue on a path that only makes them miserable?
So I spent most of my life that way, and in fact that's how I spent five years of my college life. It was just me, enjoying my studies, loving it for what it is. It was hard, but I had fun. Why? Because I loved every single moment of it. I loved every single knowledge of information that I'm getting while I'm studying because Theology had become my true love.
Now that I've graduated, I decided to branch out and to try out a new area in my life. I embarked on the legal side of the planet. Law School was my next step. Before school got started, people already told me to be afraid. That it would be unlike anything you have ever experienced in your entire life. That there would be sleepless nights, and that there would stressful days.
I guess I let it color my life.
First few weeks of law school was hell on earth. I hated it with such a passion that I didn't know existed within me. I felt like I was stuck in highschool all over again. I questioned myself, telling myself that this couldn't possibly be the right path for me. I compared it to my undergrad years, and Law School always seemed to fall short of every expectation of happiness for me.
Three weeks, and I had decided maybe quitting right now, wouldn't be such a bad idea. Sure people are going to talk, and they're going to say aww poor baby, couldn't handle the pressure, and I would be fine, because I knew I would be happy. I hated the long hours of reading, and the digesting of the cases. I hated that I didn't seem to have the time to be laid back and to have things at my own pace. I thought I would enjoy studying about law, but the pressure is just too much.
I grew jealous of the rest of my batchmates, who had their life so easy. Some were working, some are taking licensure exams, and some are even getting married. They're moving forward with their life. Me? I'm still stuck in school.
Last night, I watched this movie called 3 Idiots.
It's a great movie about life, friendship and love. But what struck me most during the entire thing was how the movie dealt with the topic of education. From the leading man I learned three things:
- Aal izz well - that the heart is an idiot, so when you're feeling the pressure all around you, tell it that aal izz well. It doesn't solve anything, but it'll give you the courage to face your fears.
- This is college - not a pressure cooker, so why should I let myself be pressured by fear of the frantic race? Even a circus lion learns to sit on a chair in fear of the whip, but you call such a lion "well-trained" and not "well-educated".
- Follow excellence - and success will chase you, pants down. I'll study my heart out, but not because I want good grades. I'll study to be accomplished, and not affluent.
Because of this movie, I realized that yes, I do love where I am. I love learning about law, and it's something that I've always had the passion for. I love that in the end, I would be able to help people. People who couldn't help themselves, and I knew deep down, I love that this is what I'm learning to do.
So, now, like Raju Rastogi, I'm not going to let fear decide my future. I'm not going to let the pressure get to me. I'm not going to let the stress of money, readings, cases, professors affect me anymore. Pass, fail, excel or even barely survive, it's not the issue anymore.
I want to study because I want to learn.
Aal izz well, people.
Lotsa love, Jana
Labels: Life in the form of chocolate, Schoolingness
My Fair Lady
Click on the picture to see it in it's original size
I made this while watching My Fair Lady.
It was for my
tumblr blog, but I thought I'd share it here as well. I'm really enjoying this drama, except I'm a little frustrated that it took a whole of twelve episodes for them to finally get together.
So glad that they got together now :)
Lotsa love, Jana
Labels: Life in the form of chocolate, Lo this deserves no category
Alumna
A season ending is a funny thing.
Bonus love points if you can spot me ;)
It's hard to think that I've finally graduated from college. That I, Jana Glaiza C. Macabali, am now a bachelor's degree holder; a college graduate. Admittedly, I don't feel any different. I still feel like the same 17 year old girl, first stepping into the College, all excited and scared.
Look at me, all smiles and happiness :D
I'd be lying if I said I wasn't sad. Of course, I'm sad. I've spent 5 years in that college. To leave it and not feel anything would seem like I'm an actual robot. I met some amazing people in that college. The moment that I rode that MRT ride home from our Seniors' outing, alone, knowing that on Monday we won't be seeing each other anymore for classes. That moment? That moment crushed so hard, and I was just sitting there all mopey and depressed.
But I am excited. I'm excited for what this new season is going to bring me. Just as I was excited that I was finally leaving Brunei, and exploring the world of college in the Philippines; I feel just as excited leaving the world of FEBIAS College of Bible, a.k.a. the College, and entering a whole new world of the University of the Philippines, henceforth now known as Law School, and learning about it.
There is one thing that's different though.
Back then, I was so excited to leave Brunei, with it's bad memories and it's general horribleness with only a pinch of happiness, but now I'm only slightly excited to leave the College, with it's great memories and it's general awesomeness with only a pinch of sadness.
I'm happy that I managed to get into Law School, but know this. I may be a UP student now, but I will always be a FEBIAS-student-alumna by choice, heart, and home.
Being all cool with my shades and the wind in my hair
See you all in the future, it's going to be a blast.
Lotsa love, Jana
Labels: Life in the form of chocolate, Olden days, Philip Of Pines, Schoolingness
Law School, Really?
Click for the bigger the picture and to see my name :)Here it is.
The proof that I got into a very prestigious law school. In fact it's THE law school of the country. The state university. The University of the Philippines. Out of three thousand students, 218 were chosen and I was one of them. But, weirdly? I still haven't completely accepted it yet.
Not because I don't want to enter the school but because I still can't believe it. Until now, it hasn't sunk in. I can't even get myself excited or even scared for the horror stories because I keep thinking that the next time I check, my name isn't going to be there.
But it's there.
My name is always there every single time I check.
I can't believe I'm going to law school, and I can't believe that I even got accepted at the University of the Philippines. Out of the three thousand students who took the LAE, only 218 were chosen, and I was one of them. Oh I'm sorry, have I said that before? I'm dreadfully sorry, but I still can't get over it, sorry.
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Actually, I'm just scared.
I'm freaked out, but I'm also quite excited.
Maybe that's why I still can't get it until now.
Lotsa love, Jana
Labels: Life in the form of chocolate, Schoolingness
Greetings to All
I'd like to take this opportunity, in between spoonfuls of food and bonding time with my brother and all the movies I've accumulated through the years, and say Merry Christmas to some very special people in my life.
To my batchmates, Aletheia:
I love you guys. We've been through so many crap together that we actually have no choice but to get close to one another. You made my stay here in the Philippines so much more meaningful, and my stay at the College more than bearable.
To the people over the seas:
My unnies, my Bruneian buddies, my RP pals, my Canadian brothers, and this one British dude who I love with all my heart. It's hard to see you guys, like literally, but you've become people that even though miles away I can trust to be with me when I'm depressed and down and out. So thank you for that.
To my partners-in-crime:
To Jam, Nadie, Paola, Carla, Keiti, So Yummy, Friend Ko and Baks. You know everything there is to know about me, and you know with just one look whether I'm happy or not. It's been proven over and over again, that even though we stop speaking for longest period of time, we can still talk nonstop about anything under the sun. You guys are my sisters and my... well sisters (I'm kidding, Baks), not in the flesh, but every bit the spirit of it.
To my family:
To my Dad, my Mom and my brother, you guys are the best. The best group of people that I was blessed to spend most of my life with. You guys are awesome. I'm thankful for every single bit of good thing about me, and my personality, because every single bit of it comes from you guys.
To my boyfriend:
Heehee. Aww, you know I still can't believe that we're together, right? I'm so blessed to have you. You know you're lucky to have me, right? *wink* hehehehehe. I'm kidding, but joking aside I'm so thankful that you're willing to take me as I am, with all of my shortcomings and all of my mistakes.
To the most awesome Person ever:
Jesus Christ. Happy Birthday. Thanks for saving me and choosing me to be Yours. Thanks for coming down and though Your stay here wasn't that much fun, I know You loved it and it was worth it for You. With all of my heart, I love You.
Merry Christmas!!!
Lotsa love, Jana
Labels: Life in the form of chocolate, Love at its janajee-est
Was Going To Speak In Korean But Decided Against It
It's been a while.
There's so many stories to tell, that I seriously don't know where to start. Should I start with the happy moments? Because there has been so many, so very many that there would be much much to many to mention, but they're all so equally happy that to mention one and not the other would feel like I'm being unfair to them.
Maybe with the few sorrowful moments? There aren't many at all, maybe one or two even, but they've been so big and produce such an impact on me that I couldn't ignore it. They pretty much made my life hell these past few days, but I really don't want to dwell on them anymore, because I promised myself that I would live my life as if they didn't exist, and that's what I will do. So I can't talk about that anymore than this paragraph if I want to stick to that idea, right?
Ah, what to do, what to do?
Lotsa love, Jana
Labels: Life in the form of chocolate
Why I Try Not To Think Too Much
I've been spending way too much time thinking about Korean dramas and Psych.
(Psych is awesome so therefore it gets it's own category in my head as other important thoughts, sometimes maybe even more. Do I regret spending that much time thinking about Psych, and not on other things? Of course not.)
I've been thinking about it so much that I haven't even realized that dude, it about a couple of months, I'm going to stop being a Senior student, and then I'm going to graduate and then, and then, and then I'm darn scared of what's going to happen in the future.
It's like the Future is creeping up on me and ready to pounce, as if I haven't prepared for it at all. But the things is, I have. I already know what I'm going to take after this, and I pretty much know where I want to take it. I've made plans, followed through on some of them to make sure they happen. Paid up a few things and studies a few ideas here and there.
So why do I feel so unprepared?
Why do I feel as excited as bunny that it's coming oh so soon, and yet scared as a mouse at the prospect of facing my life after college? This is like graduating from high-school all over again. I know, I know I'll settle in as soon as I can after a while, but it was so hard to get used to college, and now I have to get used to university life in a couple of months time?
Also, is it just me, but why does it feel like I've been studying since forever?
Graah.
Now I remember why I don't think too much about these things, and just spend time thinking about fictional stuff. It's because no matter how messy it gets over there, at least I know that they're probably going to end up happily ever-after.
Not so sure about my own life.
Lotsa love, Jana
Labels: Life in the form of chocolate, Philip Of Pines, Schoolingness
Officially Denied Hidden Status
I refuse to hide my scars.
And that’s just my hand
My body is filled with scars, and that’s not an emo-statement of a figurative matter like dude, I’ve got emotional scars of pain, anger and depression against life. Nope, I’m literally scarred all over. I’ve got scars on my legs, on my arms, on my hands, and even this belt like shaped scar at my back. They look pretty much the same as that wretched looking hand and I’ve had them ever since I was seven years old. I’m currently twenty-one, and for fourteen years I’ve been trying to hide them.
Of course, that’s impossible.
Of course. How can you completely hide your body, and still live a normal life (read: not look like an idiot)? But try I did. I’ve spent years wearing long-sleeved shirts, and pants everywhere I went. I even wore gloves at times. The only scar I didn’t manage to hide was my own face. It was hard, and not to mention really, since I’ve been living all my life in the tropics. In Brunei, it was tolerable because everywhere you went there was some semblance of an air-conditioned room, but in the Philippines? You’d die of dehydration from sweating too much, that is if the shame of walking around in sweaty clothes didn’t kill you first.
But I’ve firmly decided that I will no longer hide myself. For practical reasons and for the principle of it. Practical reasons include: it’s hot in the Philippines; I look like an idiot every time I go out, and I no longer want to feel like Edward Cullen who hides from the sun every chance I get.
And the principle is this: these scars are a part of who I am. They’re a part of the mould that formed Jana Macabali. To deny and to hide my scars seems pretty much hiding and denying me, and I no longer want to do that.
This is why this principle automatically follows several other things:
I will not hide my undying love for music. I will sing whenever and wherever I want, and you can’t stop me. Even if I sound like a cross between a bull and very dying frog, I will sing to my heart’s content.
I will not hide my love for predictable comedy shows/movies. Label me as shallow, label me all you want, but I will not back down and watch depressing things just because it’s the smart thing to do.
I will not hide my nationality as a Filipino. Ako ay Filipino na marunong magfilipino at hinding hindi mawawala ang pagmamahal ko sa inang bansa na kahit hindi ko kinalakihan, ay aking ipagyayabang pa rin. Mahal ko ang aking wika, kahit ako’y hindi magaling sa paggamit nito. Hindi ako matatakot magfilipino sa harap ng mga dayuhan, dahil wala akong pakielam kung anu man ang iniisip nila sa akin at sa aking mga kababayan. [For the foreigners who are reading this: I’m a Filipino who knows how to speak Filipino, and I will never lose my love for my Mother Country. Even though I did not grow up here, I will still be proud of it. I love my language, even though I’m not very good at it. I won’t be afraid to speak Filipino in front of foreigners, because I don’t care what they think about me and my countrymen].
I will not hide my belief and my faith as born again Christian. Call me a fanatic, call me religious, and call me whatever name you want, but I will not turn away from the greatest relationship and the greatest friend I have ever met: Jesus Christ.
It starts with my scars and it ends with so much more.
Lotsa love, Jana
Labels: Life in the form of chocolate, Philip Of Pines
I Emerge!
I woke up feeling less pessimistic about life and more than expectant of spending my free time, or whatever that short span of time that the college decides to allow me to have as my own, watching new stuff that I've downloaded. Especially since I've found, to my heart's utter delight a complete collection of this:
GENSOMADEN SAIYUKI!!
Ah, that brings back such fond memories of waiting for it's release every week at a near CD store, the hours spent with my best friend,
Jam, and my brother watching it, and who couldn't remember all of those notebooks filled with the latest installation of the fanfics by yours truly in preparation to be typed and uploaded in a fanfic forum (and may I just say back then, I was one of the most active and most read fanfic writers in the place? Humble, I am not, for I was really proud of that work)? Great and fond memories. Of course who could ever forget my obsession for this guy:
SHA GOJYO!
I remember printing pictures of him and "laminating" it with plastic notebook covers and an excessive use of tape. I was young and stupid, and I kept those pictures in my wallet for such a long time. He was always easier to like than real actors because you don't have to read about them falling apart because of whatever is going on in their real life. Hahahah, ah fun, fun, fun times. It made life as a high school student not so tedious.
It totally made my day, knowing that I finally have the complete ULTIMATE collection of this story to watch. It makes these dreary days less dreary.
Plus, Sha Gojyo, now that man is allowed to have long hair.
Lotsa love, Jana
Labels: Life in the form of chocolate, Schoolingness
It Is
Before the year started, I had a feeling that 2010 was going to be of my best years.
Halfway through, it's been the best one yet. I know it's too early to tell, but I think it's just going to get better. I mean yeah, there have been some crappy days, but the great days always make up for it. So much that I've already forgotten those crappy days filled with crappy reasons.
There is this one crappy event recently, but I am in no mood to dwell upon extended family issues, because I've long accepted the fact that extended family, aren't really the greatest people for me to rely on.
I do apologize for not having updated in a while.
But, not like anyone ever really reads this site anyway.
Things have been going great. School is good. Friends are good. Immediate Family is good. Turtle is always goooooood. Everything is basically on the enjoyment level of gooooood. I even have a great way to spend my free time.
Will probably update when things go topsy-turvy again.
Lotsa love, Jana
Labels: Kuya, Life in the form of chocolate, Schoolingness
How was the Land of the Unexpected Treasures?
In one word: AWE-wait for it-SOME!
May I just say that it was the best vacation I have ever had. All the expectations, and patience, and whatever it was that I had to do to get to there, was worth it. Being there with my family, seeing my friends again, and being with him, the Turtle, definitely resulted in the best vacation ever known to someone like me.
It felt really great to hang out with the Turtle because it was his first time to be in Brunei. Do you know how great it feels to tour someone around the place you grew up to someone who has never been there? Well it feels great! Seeing him reacting to everything that I showed him like a happy kid, it made everything look brand new, and sparkly.
Being with my parents in Brunei too was wonderful. It has been two long years since we were together, as a complete family. I am just so glad that finally we got to go out together, eat at restaurants together, and have long conversations together.
I know I may not have been rather positive, whenever I talk about my past especially in regards to how it was back there during high school. I admit, it wasn't that great, but I learned a lot, and I met some pretty good best friends who I will treasure for life.
So I guess Brunei isn't such a bummer after all.
Lotsa love, Jana
Labels: Kuya, Life in the form of chocolate, Olden days
Happy Mother's Day
Dear Most Wonderful Woman in the World,
I love you more than words can say. I love you more than actions can show. I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, and no matter how many times I say it, it will never, ever be enough to express how much I love you.
Even after what happened fourteen years ago, you are still the most beautiful woman in the world for me, my brother, and most especially my Dad.
Even though you don't ask for anything back, you can be rest assured that I will do everything that I can to make sure that in the future you will be proud of me.
I love you so much.
Lotsa love, Jana
Labels: Life in the form of chocolate
Feelings and Thoughts
What have I been doing recently?
Well I've been spending most of the time surfing the internet, watching movies and old shows, and reading books and mangas, all in one combined and focused effort to waste seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks until it's finally time to fly off to the tiny, teeny, beautiful land of Brunei.
I cannot believe that it's only about four more days.
I'm so very excited, like I've got tingling in my bones because I'm finally going to come home after two long years, and I get to show the Turtle around, and it's going to be AMAZING.
But I shall stop boring you with another entry filled with EXCITEMENT at the prospect of spending THREE WHOLE WEEKS with the Turtle.
Ahem.
INSTEAD, I'll just bore you with a useless entry about what I feel about all of the stuff I've been doing lately to pass the time, because you know that's just SO MUCH BETTER.
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Feelings and Thoughts Regarding Surfing the Internet:
Do you know just how beautiful the INTERNET is? It's like this treasure trove of all kinds of beautiful knowledge just waiting to be picked up and stored in some deep dark part of brain! It's also a great way to STALK people.
Most of the time when I surf the internet, I usually end up doing one of three things: Stalk people on Facebook, download some good things, or just catch up on some random trivia on Wikipedia. Oh who am I kidding? I DO ALL THOSE THINGS AT THE SAME TIME!
Especially the stalking, I do a lot of that.
It's a great way to waste time because not only are you learning stuff about random things as well as the life of your all of your friends, and even those you barely know or have never talked to... AHEM, anyway it's amazing because before you know it A WHOLE DAY HAS PASSED (and you're so much closer to the start of the best vacation of your life)!!!
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Feelings and Thoughts Regarding Watching Movies
You know another great time waster?
Watching movies you love, like, have never heard off, and even those you're barely interested in but just had to watch because you felt sorry for it and you couldn't delete it unless you watched it type of movies.
YAY MOVIES!
But seriously though, you wanna waste time, you watch movies. You get sucked into their world whether you like it or not and you come out two hours later either overjoyed because you cannot believe how amazing a movie could be and you just wish so badly that you could have been there in that movie because it was just that good (SHERLOCK HOLMES FTW!!!) or annoyed for wasting your time on such a pathetic excuse for a movie and you cannot believe that people actually like this and then you realize the world has lost it (TWI-FREAKING-LIGHT) or you know just satisfied at least. But the fact remains two hours is gone like a blink of an eye.
Poof!
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Feelings and Thoughts Regarding Watching Old Shows
You know I've been thinking, they really should bring back some old shows that were pretty awesome way back when, and could actually teach people the true meaning of GOOD QUALITY TV.
What with Twi-freaking-light taking over the big screen and turning normal teenagers into lovers of sparkling puff, what we need is a GREAT BIG DOSE of shows like Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Just you know to slap them back to reality. They don't make shows like Buffy anymore.
AND FRIENDS, they should totally bring back FRIENDS.
Yeah that's all I got for this.
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Feelings and Thoughts Regarding Reading
If you know me, you know that I love reading.
It's like my favorite hobby of all time. I can sit in one spot for one ENTIRE day, and just read and read and READ MYSELF TO DEATH, but you know I'd ask the Grim Reaper to wait just a wee bit more just so I can finish my book, and THEN HE COULD TAKE ME.
So yeah, I love reading.
So for a long time I've been reading mangas like One Piece, Fairy Tail, Liar Game, Full Metal Alchemist, Faster than a Kiss, Skip Beat and may I just say that reading stuff made by the Japs? REALLY COOL.
I've also just finished the first Camp Half-Blood series by Rick Riordan: Percy Jackson and the Olympians. MAY I JUST SAY WITH ALL CAPITAL LETTERS THAT IT WAS THE BOMB?! I know it's saying a lot but I totally loved those books.
It was like I was rediscovering my love for Greek Mythology all over again, and if you're like me, you'd know that Greek Mythology? Beats any kind of television drama EVER CREATED.
Wish the next series comes soon.
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And that is all!
Lotsa love, Jana
Labels: Kuya, Life in the form of chocolate
A Letter To Life
Dear Life,
You've been really nice to me lately.
I mean I know honestly, you've been really crappy about a year ago, but this year? Man this year you've been amazing. I mean, it's only been a couple of months into Twenty-Ten, but to this day I still believe you're going to be amazing.
Especially since I just found out that I got a grade in a certain subject that I was so sure that I was going to flunk and completely lose my scholarship, but I didn't flunk it! I thank God that I managed to get the proper grade that I needed! You, Life, don't hate me after all, don't you? You know you love me? Yeah, you do!
Also just look at what's going to happen after ten days? I mean, I can honestly say that this is going to be best vacations I'm ever going to have. Come on, three whole weeks with the Turtle? We could fight every single day over some silly, silly argument, and still just the fact that I'm with him for three weeks only means that this is the best vacation I'm going to have to date.
So not only am I going on my best vacation ever, after said vacation, I'm also going to be on my last year as college student, which is something I've been looking forward for about four freaking years! I just know that even though this year is probably going to be tiring, busy, scary, freaky, and might just be a tad sad-y, I just know that it's going to be happy and filled with all kinds of fun.
So, Life, thank you.
Don't go all downhill on me now alright?
Lotsa love, Jana
Labels: Kuya, Life in the form of chocolate, Schoolingness
Officially Going To Brunei
Today makes it official.
The Turtle is officially booked for his flight to the great, but teeny, tiny land of Brunei. I mean I've known for a long time that this was happening because we've been planning this vacation for ages, but tonight it's completely official because tonight his ticket has finally been booked.
I cannot believe we're going on a three-week vacation to the land where I grew up, and I'll be able to show him all the places that have become memorable to me (which will probably take about a day and a half because Brunei is that tiny) and he would get to meet all of my friends.
I'm so excited for it, I just had to say something you know?
Lotsa love, Jana
Labels: Kuya, Life in the form of chocolate, Philip Of Pines
The One With a lot of Entries
It's been a while.
I have so much to tell you, pumpkin pies, that it is just so unbelievable that I haven't said anything yet. Okay, actually it is believable since I have no stable internet connection since the vacation started, but let me make up for it by boring you with entries, upon entries of boring updates about me, yay!
Boring Entry #1
A.K.A. The One Where I Talk About a Happy Valentine's Date with the Turtle!
Or rather just show it to you with two pictures:
This was what we looked like four years ago during Valentine's day. We weren't dating then, but he and I already had... this weird thing for each other, and besides I couldn't find a picture of what we looked like during the Valentine's we were together... except for you know... this year:
Yeah I know we gained a ton of weight, and we've changed a whole lot since then, but one thing remains the same, and I know it will never change:
You will always be my valentine.
Boring Entry #2
A.K.A. The One Where I Talk About My Much Awaited and Much Postponed Anniversary Date with the Turtle!
It's been exactly three years, and sixteen days, since he first told me he loved me and I realized I couldn't possibly love anyone else.
Okay, so the anniversary had to be postponed because we were at the College then, and it was the year end week filled with year end activities, therefore we couldn't really date or anything.
Anyway, on our date, he bought me this really nice silver necklace with a tiny cross for a pendant, and it was gorgeous. I bought him a pair of shorts. Personally, I think he got the short end of the stick, but seriously he really liked the pair of shorts that I got him, and I was like oookaaay, if that's what you really want.
We're both happy, and though he didn't cook for me this year, we had a blast on our late third anniversary date.
I love him just as much I did three years ago, maybe even more; true story.
Boring Entry #3
A.K.A. The One Where I Don't Mention the Turtle in Any Other Sentence Besides This!
I got this sweet new Vaio Netbook:
If it was ever possible to be in love with a gadget, I would propose and elope with this baby in a land far, far away. It is gorgeous in pictures and it is just as gorgeous when you're cradling it on your own palms.
Her name is Princess Vaiola; once again, true story.
Boring Entry #4
A.K.A. The One Where I Try Really Hard Not To Talk About the Turtle Again, and Fail!
Dude!
I am like so unbelievably excited for our 3 week trip to Brunei, where I spend said three weeks, with family, old Brunei friends and (especially happy about this one) the Turtle!
Three whole weeks!
It's the first time we get to travel abroad together, it's his first time to ever get to ride a plane, and it's the first time I get to spend three whole weeks together with him!
Can you feel me bursting with joy and energy here?
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And that's all folks!
Lotsa love, Jana
Labels: Kuya, Life in the form of chocolate, Love at its janajee-est, Olden days, Schoolingness
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