{Sunday, July 19, 2009}

[[Blood and sparkles...]]
So I did something new this week.

What would that be, you ask, my dear pumpkin pies? Well, it's something I've never, ever, done in my entire life, breathing and living on this planet. The college had a blood donation drive at the clinic last Thursday and so, you see, I took the liberty of letting some lady stick a needle into one of my veins...

Letting her take this whole big bag-full of blood from my body.

And now I'm a member of the People Who Give Blood Club.

...

Though I have to admit that the whole time my blood was being taken to help some poor person who might need a whole bag-full of my blood, all I could think of, was Sparkly Edward's pouting face, or what substitutes as pouting for said sparkly being. I can't say it wasn't a pleasant experience because even though I hated the sparkly being's guts, the sending of negative thoughts towards aforementioned sparkly being did take my mind off the the feeling of my blood flowing out of my body into a bag.

A wonderful experience that I plan to repeat regularly.

Message to the pumpkin pies:
Give blood, before those sparkling freaks suck it out of you!

Lotsa love, Jana

Labels: Life in the form of chocolate, Schoolingness

[[The One where I talk about irresponsibility...]]
Steps to irresponsibility are deliciously slow and painful when it ends.

I can feel it. It's a little twinge that says, sleep a little longer, read a little more, talk a little louder, cry a little easier, think a little too less, and be a little bit, a little bit more, and more lazy as time goes tick tocking by.

If you keep on feeding that twinge, it becomes a static cling, and finally it's a static charge that holds on to your very being, no matter how much you try to shake it off, you're too caught up with trying to catch up, but then it's too late, and bam next thing you know? You're dead.

Like a fax mail from the great beyond, telling me that you, Jana, are useless leader, and that you are becoming so much worse as a student and that you do not deserve to live, and that boom bada bing, you're a goner now, like you know... dead.

Dead, dead, dead, dead-y dead.

Hmm.

Also how does one go from serious discussion of irresponsibility to childish chants of dead-ness? This in itself is such a marvelous fact. I am truly a freak of nature.

Woot?

Lotsa love, Jana

Labels: Life in the form of chocolate, Schoolingness

[[Mornings and jobs...]]
The morning breeze blows past my hair. The twits of birds from afar can be easily heard above the soft quiet sounds of the morning. Even the rooster crowing so early in the morning, something which would usually annoy me, somehow seems to fit just right in a morning such as this.

The morning at the college is so peaceful, and so beautiful that I almost want to spend every morning like this. Sometimes, waking up so early in the morning has it's own wonderful benefits.

In related news, I'm currently spending the weekend at the college because of a seminar-slash-retreat-slash-something that I'd like to call Student Leaders Planning Summit. Or Retreat. Or maybe just That Time Were We, the Appointed and/or Nominated then Elected, Student Leaders Meet, Plan, and then Eat Good Free Food.

Why am I here?

Well because I'm the type of girl that breaks barriers, and I have broken the male presidents barrier by being the only girl this year to become the Junior Class President. How empowering is that? Eat that, non-feminist person! Except there is this one thing I've got to ask though, and it's not because I'm complaining or anything.

Well you see, pumpkin pies, the presidents and vice presidents of various classes have formed this committee called the Welfare and Development Committee which handles the taking care of our fellow classmates that need help, and myself being the only female in the company was automatically assigned the job of being the secretary of the committee.

What is up with that?

And I thought I got away from all those typing of minutes and all that other doodles man, and yet here I am once again, automatically assigned the secretary position.

I don't mind, honestly. It's just funny that when one thinks of secretary, they always think female, girl, lady, with glasses who loves to write. And even though I'm mostly that, I don't think I'm the secretary type at all, and yet I've been some form of secretary for three years in a row now.

Weird.

Lotsa love, Jana

Labels: Life in the form of chocolate, Schoolingness

[[Fangirling: Deadpool...]]
I have just finished watching X-Men Origins: Wolverine.

And may I just say that I have found another collectible man-item for my fangirling fetishes. However it isn't Wolverine because even though Wolverine has some seriously mysterious appeal to me, he didn't really grab my attention in this one. It isn't even Gambit, my ultimate favorite X-Men member, who may I just say isn't even French in the movie, why is that??

My new collectible man-item would be Deadpool: The Merc with a Mouth. Especially as portrayed in the movie. He be hot, and he be funny and even though he gets all mutilated and uglified in the the end, he still be my hot, funny, Deadpool, Merc with a Mouth crushness.


And I am severely ecstatic that a Deadpool movie will be coming out and that Deadpool is still going to be played by Ryan Reynolds and that I am so going to watch it when it comes out here, then download it illegally into my laptop so that I could watch it whenever I want, and then when the original DVD with bonus features comes out, I am going to buy it so that there will be more Deadpool bonus-ness of love!


Teehee, ain't he funny?

Lotsa love, Jana

Labels: Lo this deserves no category

[[Daddy-kins...]]
And Father's Day is almost over!

Everyone around the world is doing this whole, long, drawn out messages on how they love their fathers, on how they've forgiven all the mistakes, on how their so in sync with their fathers, etc.

But I shall make it simple.


You're the best Dad in the world, hands down! You are like the model that inspires me, and can you believe how much you are my true superhero?

In fact I look up to you so much that I have found a significant other which has your characteristics, your morals, your restraint, your sense of humor, heck even your nickname is exactly the same!

I love you Daddy-kins.

Thanks for loving us back.

Lotsa love, Jana

Edited
Conversation with my Mom

Mom: That's not fair!
Me: What isn't fair?
Mom: You have Daddy's picture on your blog and not mine! I demand that you place me in there too!
Me: But it's Father's Day
Mom: I didn't see a picture of me on Mother's Day!
Me: ...

And therefore, due to consistent request!

Tis my BEAUTIFUL mother!

You know I love you too, Mom.

Labels: Life in the form of chocolate, Love at its janajee-est

[[Pit of Cheesiness...]]
So I just finished watching Twilight.

I'm still sending negative thoughts toward the couple, i.e. Bella and Edward, who hail from the deep pits of torture I'd like to call the Pit of Cheesiness, and I still think that Stephanie Meyers is one crappy writer, but I have to reluctantly admit that I might, might, focus on the emphasis placed on the word might, have enjoyed the movie. The characters are interesting, the plot is interesting, and even though the couple are cheesy as cheesy can be, the movie is a hundred times better than the book.

Also, Jasper and Jacob are the hotness.

And I'll stop there because complimenting anything to do with Twilight gives me hives as an allergic reaction because my body refuses to have anything to do with those freaks of nature called the Twilight vampires, except Jasper because Jasper is cool as long as he doesn't step into sunlight and sparkle like the freak called Edward.

Updates on the College include me being weirdly bi-polar recently, swinging from one end of happiness to another end of depression in several seconds, enjoying my studies, depressed at the lack of things to do, happy to have more free time, and a whole lot of other shenanigans. I already have readings, reports, papers and several tiredness filling my schedule.

Whee?

Lotsa love, Jana

Labels: Life in the form of chocolate, Schoolingness

[[At the College...]]
The weather at the College is splendid!

It's raining, but not so hard that going out of the dorm is terrible downer. I love these kind of days because it makes bumming around so much more satisfying. Classes has been on and off today, and we haven't been doing much. In fact we've been sitting and doing nothing at all. Bumming around has never been this satisfying.

But the best part of being in the College?

It's being able to see the Turtle on a daily basis.

In fact seeing him from afar is enough to last for several hours. He is my little ball of energy that fills my little heart with joy and, can you see how happy I truly am?

Yay-ness!

Lotsa love, Jana

Labels: Kuya, Life in the form of chocolate, Schoolingness

[[Bunny bunny bunny...]]
Dear Self,

Well, hello.

It's been a while since I've made an appearance in the dark corners of your little world. Has is it been a couple of months? You seem to have gotten a lot thinner. Have you been eating? No? You should always take care of yourself because if you don't, who will?

Actually I'm a little sad today, which is really just weird if you ask me. I mean, nothing specifically bad has happened to us recently. And yet, here I am.

Remember the time when I always visited you? Back in high school? You even made little pathetic drawings of broken hearts. You even drew one on a plate and I still remember your idiotic words:

I feel like I'm eating my heart. On a plate. With a spoon. I'm using a knife though instead of a fork, because forks make a bunch of holes, whilst the knife just cuts so easily cause it's sharp.

Funny little bunny.

Though your heart isn't for dinner today, doesn't it feel a little painful? Like someone is at the very least poking it with a pair of chopsticks or something? Speaking of chopsticks, how come you've never learned how to use them? It looks so amazingly cool and you've always wanted to try, but yet you never took the time to learn.

Useless little bunny.

I know. I realize why I needed to pay you this visit. Because you're tired and I'm tired and I think that someone else is tired of our tired selves. And it is sad because this someone else is someone which has a large magnitude of importance for you, so we definitely do not want this someone to be tired of us.

Such a tired little bunny.

Lotsa love,
Your Emo Self

Labels: Lo this deserves no category

[[Welcome to Janaje-eight...]]
I've only done tags if the people are really nice, therefore be flattered Keiti because I, your personal stalker, thinks you are nice.

Eight things I'm looking forward to
1. I can't wait to see the Turtle tomorrow!
2. Classes, classes, classes!
3. Brand new spanking laptop that will take about six months to arrive!
4. Working on my new church service at Cavite!
5. To meet my new roommates!
6. To see the Turtle tomorrow because the excitement I feel for that deserves another number!
7. To see who's going to be the college's yearbook's editor (and all the while hoping it's not me)!
8. To finally graduate after two more years!

Eight things I did yesterday
1. Woke up earlier than I wanted to
2. Traveled from the college to my house
3. Fell asleep in a bus
4. Ate at Jollibee
5. Fell asleep in in a van
6. Fainted on top of my bed
7. Surfed the internet
8. Sent negative energy towards Edward and all the other Twilight freaks

Eight things I wish I could do
1. Fly
2. Actually have class tomorrow
3. Burn the sparkling Edward until all that's left of him is a bag of glitters
4. Ignore my newly appointed curfew and surf the net until whatever time I want
5. Be sown to the Turtle's hip
6. Have unlimited supply of money for books
7. Watch a movie in the cinema
8. Be President of the Philippines?

Eight shows I watch
1. Scrubs
2. Reaper
3. Chuck
4. Wizards of Waverly Palace
5. Korean Telenovelas
6. Japanese Telenovelas
7. Taiwanese Telenovelas
8. And when I'm forced, Filipino Telenovelas

Yay!

Lotsa love, Jana

Labels: Lo this deserves no category

[[Hopes dashed...]]
Curses, my joy has been foiled!

Apparently classes have been postponed. The nerd in me so sad because I'm really looking forward to the start of classes. In fact the nerd is so sad, she's strangling the lazy bum in me who just wants to stay at home and play with Jeebaby on Pet Society, hugging anyone for a couple of coins so as to have enough money to decorate Jeebaby's house.

Crazy-weirdo-person-thoughts aside, I really am looking forward to classes. I've had enough of this vacation and I really want to buckle down, grab some pens, take some notes, and actually fill my mind with mind-numbing thoughts of work and ideas and all that hooplah.

Also I really miss being a student with the Turtle. I miss seeing him from across the room. I miss bumping into him at the canteen. I miss sitting inside the kiosk and him waving at me from his room. I miss sharing notes with him. I just miss being able to see him on a daily basis.

Hay.

Lotsa love, Jana

Labels: Kuya, Life in the form of chocolate, Schoolingness

[[A total nerd...]]
I'm officially enrolled now.

In a couple of days classes will start, and I'm having some moving feelings here inside of me. I'm happy, excited, whoopdeedoo and all other types of good positive feelings. I may be considered a nerd, but I really cannot wait for school to start.

I've checked all my schedules (half-days everywhere!!), and my classes are definitely some of the stuff I'm really interested in (World Literature, Sacred Scriptures, Hebrew Poetry!!!). Oh, dear gosh, I am a nerd!

I'm the Crazy Nerd!

In other news, I've recently joined a "Role Playing Game" in Anime Forum, and I am seriously having fun with it. I am allowing myself to go crazy with my writing skills, something which I haven't had much of in a very long time.

Labels: Life in the form of chocolate, Schoolingness

[[Meet Jeebaby...]]
What's up, pumpkin pies?

I seem to have this overwhelming feeling to blog, and yet this overwhelming feeling can't seem to provide me with any topic to actually blog about, so instead I've been typing and deleting words every fifteen minutes or so, words which can be summarized into one simple sentence: I've run out of things to do, can't school start already?

I have been spending a lot of time plurk-ing, and facebook-ing, so much that my thought pattern now talks to myself, and because I'm crazy, myself speaks in the third person. Though Jana is enjoying herself playing with her pet, Jeebaby, in Pet Society, there is more to life for her than words and moving figures on a screen. She wants to see the Turtle for one thing, and plus she just lost all her Pet Society coins because she gambled too much.


Look, pumpkin pies! This is Jeebaby, and she is a spoiled little purple whatever the heck type of animal she may be. I'd do anything just to get this little Jeebaby all the money that she needs, even visiting all of her friends just to scrounge for some 20 coins a hug, in order that I can buy her pretty dresses, may I just ask, why are the purple stuff so expensive Pet Society? I also think she needs some shoes, don't you think?

I need more coins, time to hug some smelly pets.

Lotsa love, Jana

Labels: Life in the form of chocolate, Schoolingness

[[Wedding...]]
Greetings, pumpkin pies!

As I've mentioned in my previous entries, with a lot of fairies flying in and about that I bet you all are sick of all these talk about fairies but hey my Internet is stable enough to publish pictures so I'm thankful enough for one last mention; I have posted some of the wedding pictures!

I woke up at around four in the morning because the preparations for the wedding was happening at the house and they were doing make-ups and stuff here in this room. So I woke up a little woozy but never woozy enough to document the changes that my face took!


This is before anything is applied, anywhere. I have bed hair, luggage under my eyes and I'm wearing a ratty t-shirt. But hey, even though I have bed hair, my hair is still short and cute! Woot-ness for the pretty short bob!


This after make-up has been applied. I now own shiny lips, and, though it's not obvious here, I got pretty eyes. And those eyes are trying really hard not to cry because the way the make-up was applied, kind of hurt, especially with the eyelashes. I still remember it, huhu.


Ah, the finished product! Don't I look pretty? I blink prettily at you so that you will be convinced of my pretty-ness. *blink blink*


Pretty, right? Hehehe.


That's how my dress looks like from afar, and I don't have any other clearer pictures of the full body and I totally screwed up my face in that picture, but it's alright because look at my sparkly dress! It all makes up for it!


Oh, and that guy is my partner during the wedding. He was quiet, so I pretty much did all the talking. We were the cord sponsors. It was fun, but I have a feeling that I scared him. Ah well.


But the best part of the day was being with my real partner and significant other. He was my date for the wedding, and it was fun because I was a bridesmaid and being a bridesmaid means I get freebies and I'm going somewhere with this sentence really, and he still served me drinks like I didn't have any freebies and so I shared my freebies with him, and doesn't he just love me so much?

Yay.

Lotsa love, Jana

Labels: Kuya, Life in the form of chocolate

[[Shaking...]]
Hello, dear pumpkin pies, did you miss me?

Well I hope you have, because I've missed you. It seems the fairies like me this time around and has somewhat stabled my Internet. But you know those fairies, they're always changing their minds, and might actually be cutting off the Internet as we speak. I shake my head at those flaky fairies. *shake shake*

Nothing really significant has been happening lately, at least significant in a sense that a mountain is actually volcano and we're all going to die or my brother has decided that he will get married stat to anyone he manages to convince because we'll lose a hundred million pesos if he doesn't, anyone wants to marry him? type of significance. But if you can call bonding with my brother and making a deeper friendship with him and totally yay for sibling love, then yeah it has been a significant few days.

Also, I believe I mentioned that I was going to be attending a wedding and may I just say that fancy dress is sparkly! I definitely think it's a really gorgeous dress. Except it has one flaw, it's in apple green. I might somehow feel like a vegetable, but hey it's a shmexy vegetable at least? If it only came in lavender, then that dress would be perfect. I'll post up pictures of me as shmexy vegetable with a cute haircut after the wedding.

It has been about a week since I've last seen the Turtle and I am desperately missing him. Did I ever mention that one of the things that would make me really happy is to be sewn to his hip? Yes, yes, pumpkin pies, this is very true. He's the date that I'm going to bring to the wedding of my cousin, and dude, I can't believe I'm old enough to actually bring a date to a wedding, and that I actually have a date to bring to the wedding, and in fact sometimes the presence of the Turtle in my life just brings me so much awe, is this a dream, because I really don't want to wake up?

Ah, life is good.

Lotsa love, Jana

Labels: Kuya, Life in the form of chocolate

[[Shmexy...]]
I'm still alive, bloggers!

Ever since my Mom has arrived from Brunei, all my problems seem to have disappeared within the blink of an eye. I'm more relaxed because I don't have to worry about money and my dysfunctional family. I've also gotten a better wardrobe which now contains new shirts, pants and a kickass gown/dress with sparkly sparkles for a wedding that I'm going to attend.

Except, the Internet has been really wacky lately. But I guess I can't have everything in this world, right? Also, I have been ignoring the Internet fairies lately, and I haven't done my hourly ritual of clapping and saying I believe in fairies, and have probably caused a million deaths of fairies all around Neverland. Maybe that's why they're targeting me, because the Internet connection for the computer outside that my brother is currently using is fine.

Plus I got a new haircut!

Stare at the May masthead and look at the glory of the haircut that is on my head! Be awed and worship the genius that is short bobs! The hair has made me lost a ton of non-existent weight and I look shmexy!

That is all, cause I need to shower.

Lotsa love, Jana

Labels: Life in the form of chocolate

[[Sparkly...]]
What is up with the weather in Philip of Pines, people?

First it's hot like heck, then freezing cold, then humidly wet, and then hot all over again. I have this sneaking suspicion that the world is ending, and someone, somewhere around the world, is telling some gullible people that they ought to sell everything they own and move in with aforementioned someone and surrender all their money, except they are obviously and redundantly gullible because if the world is going to end, what in the world does the aforementioned someone need your money for? What, is aforementioned someone the only one allowed to have money after the world ends?

And that paragraph ended far from where it started.

It is approximately four days until this fugitive running away to a different house thing is over because my Mom and brother are arriving on May 12 and we're going to completely cut ourselves off from all these dysfunctional family drama, and I wouldn't have to tiptoe around so I wouldn't step on any toes any longer, and my brother and I will be free of all dysfunctional behavior, except, you know, our own.

Also on May 12, I am going on a date with the Turtle, which ends with us picking up my Mom and brother from their flight from Brunei. But it is a date with the Turtle nonetheless and I am ecstatic because if it were possible I want to permanently sew myself to the Turtle's hip, that way no one can force me to leave him because I am an appalling, embarrassing and not to mention crazy girlfriend that way.

In my humble opinion, any reason to be with him deserves a celebration that involves fancy dresses, men in tuxedos, dancing, music and an All You Can Eat, Eat All You Can, You Can Eat All Buffet. It's just too bad that our wallets put together cannot even afford the shiny sparkles used in a fancy dress, because any fancy dress must sparkle, and if we can't have the sparkles, it is officially not a dress, like Pluto is officially not a planet.

Oh look, dinner's ready. Ciao, ya'll.

Lotsa love, Jana

Labels: Kuya, Life in the form of chocolate, Philip Of Pines

[[Bigfoot...]]
Tick tock tick tock tick tock.

The clock is driving me crazy. It's times like this when I've got nothing better to do, that I sink into pensive thoughts, situations that force me to ask deep things that questions my life as I know it. Where is my life heading too? Why is this happening to me? Will I ever have a proper home? Did I really make the right decision by taking this road in my life? What are my plans after I graduate? How am I going to change my masthead for the month of May when I don't even have my camera with me? How am I going to get my hands on a KFC Famous Bowl without leaving the house? Does anyone in this house know where I can get some sweet corn?

All very very valid questions that I desperately need answers to, but none seem to appear when they are obviously very desperately needed. Those answers are selfish, hiding from poor poor me. I demand some payment of sorts and they better pacify me or someone's going to be responsible for the meltdown and me melting down is not a pretty sight. Actually just me alone is not a pretty sight.

I have been watching Lost Tapes recently and it gave me the creeps. At first I thought it was real, and have sworn to never never ever go on a camping trip ever again, but then I wiki-ed and found out that those stories weren't real at all.

I wonder if I can meet Bigfoot?

He seems like such a nice guy.

Lotsa love, Jana

Labels: Life in the form of chocolate, Schoolingness

[[Help me, I'm bored...]]
Fourth bored day.

It will take exactly seven days until my life speeds up, and I was wondering if anybody knew someone where I can get a high-speed remote that will make the twelfth of May come so much faster. I am running out of activities to do and food to eat here, people. It seems even the Internet has run out of things to offer me, darn those Internet fairies.

Meanwhile, I have managed to score a room to sleep in with cabled TV, and since I'm sleeping alone now I can watch whatever I want, whenever I want and until whatever time I want to. Yay for cabled TV under my complete control.

The Turtle will be going on a camp thing at Zambales, which is several more hours away from me (why are you so big, Philip of Pines???), where there is no signal whatsoever and I'm going to be completely Turtle-less for two days at the very least. This stinks, not only can I not see the Turtle in person, now I can't even hear his voice. Stupid cheap no available signal cellphone.

Suggestions of a personal project, anyone?

Lotsa love, Jana

Labels: Kuya, Life in the form of chocolate, Philip Of Pines

[[Shortie]]
And the third day passes by without a sound.

I already have routine planned out on how I'm going to spend the next seven days whilst I stay here, and it's nothing elaborate or breath-taking but it is enough to make the days go by faster until my Mom and Brother arrive from the tiny land of Brunei Darussalam. So far all I've been doing is eating, sleeping, watching, blogging and repeat from step one.

In other news I have finished watching Boys Over Flowers. Yay!

That is all.

Lotsa love, Jana

Labels: Life in the form of chocolate

[[Big country...]]
I have left the premises of the deadly household.

After a strength-sucking travel from one province to another (which may I just ask, whose bright idea was it to make this country so big and the places so far from each other anyway? Yeah, if you were running for president, I so would not vote for you, you non-existent decider of making this country big person), and after I had believed that I'd probably won't see the Internet until after a couple of days, it seems that the Internet fairies has deemed me worthy of another chance, and has given me a computer to mess around with until I get my laptop. See I knew that those bloody sacrifices wasn't all for waste, and they all just laughed at me. Well, guess who's laughing now, huh? Huh?

So I'm staying at the father's side of my family. Yes, the other dysfunctional side where it's all heck I'm too busy to care so go do your thing just don't get in my face. Which I can probably stand for a couple of days, so to those who care, I'm going to be fine, people.

But, darn it, people. I am, to use a phrase, dead-tired. Therefore I have decided that I shall exploit the kindness of the fairies tomorrow. Plus the "owner" of the computer has been walking in and out of the room every now and then and I kind feel all kinds of killer stares at the back of my neck, so I really should retire from this seat and just watch me some television.

From one eye-ruin-er to another, ey?

Lotsa love, Jana

Labels: Life in the form of chocolate, Philip Of Pines