Friday, November 10, 2006
Weird number...I've realized that I am an outsider.
For the 3042.52nd time. More or less.
David, my friend from Myanmar, and I were talking about how hard it is to live in the Philippines because of different mindsets.
That's when I realized for the 3042.52nd time that I'm probably never gonna fit in in my own Mother Country.
You only look like a Filipino. Your skin color, your outward appearance all show that you're a Filipino. But inside, you're really not like them. You're different inside.
Ok, so I made some alterations here and there, but that's basically the element of what he was trying to say.
At least I'm pretty sure that's what he is saying.
So there I was after that conversation, sitting on one of the seats in the bus, unable to take my weekly-I'm-so-tired-because-of-traveling-a-lot-and-stuff-bus nap.
And I realized.
I'm never gonna fit in.
Then I fell asleep.
Lotsa love, Jana