Friday, December 28, 2007
When home becomes a house...Am in an internet cafe because finding WiFi here in Brunei sucks more than a vaccum.
So. Am in Brunei. Remember the prediction that I made a couple of days back about not fitting in and having everything change? Yeah, well you can call me a prophet or something because I was as out of place as a person who was addicted to beef in an all you can eat buffet for vegetarians.
Exaggeration aside, things have changed. A lot. It's not for the bad per se, but things have changed. I met with a friend and though she has changed, she is still pretty much the same, except different and dude I don't know how but darn it she pulled it off pretty well. Except time with the family, I think tonight was the only time I actually enjoyed meeting up with old friends here in Brunei.
Everything else was a shattering experience. It was like going to a place where you remembered everything and you remembered everyone except you forgot how you were supposed to act around them and all you ended up doing was smiling like a moron while everyone else smiled back and said hi and then walked away while you were still standing there smiling like the moron you so very are. Except it was exactly like that.
What have I learned so far? No matter how long you spend your time in some place, leave it long enough, and when you come back you'll find that you no longer belong and all you'll have left is a memory of way back when. A good memory, but still a memory and nothing more than that.
Guess Brunei isn't home anymore.
Lotsa love, Jana