Some Weird Feeling
I'm staring at a blank screen.
I don't know whether I ought to be sad or happy or annoyed or whatever really in general. Things haven't spiraled out of control just yet, but I'm not exactly doing cartwheels either. It's just everything seems to be at a standstill. I'm expecting something, but nothing is coming. It's like the only new things that are popping about are things to watch for me, but other than that... has it been so pathetic that the only thing new in my life are new episodes of shows to download and watch? Is this all I have now?
I'm probably just depressed at the moment, because I know that the moment I wake up tomorrow, I'll feel bright and chipper, and happy at the prospect of having something new to watch. But tonight, can I just be me, and be just a little down and out? Can I just lock myself up somewhere, crawl into a small corner and just weep?
Can I just do all of that even if I don't know why I want to?
See you on the other side.
Lotsa love, Jana
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